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The weekend

Friday Night (2/11/2011), I was still feeling pretty sick. I felt that, if I did the WOD that was on the site for the day (Nicole, 400m run, pull ups to failure for 20 minutes) that it would not be good for me.

Dave told me to come to the clinic and we’d find something for me. It ended up being pretty easy going, but fun still. I did the following:

  • Strict ring pull ups in sets until failure. I think I got 6 or 7 sets of 1-3. No idea on the total.
  • 2x{5 kb clean & jerk (each arm), 10 goblet squats, 5 kb snatch (each arm), 10 goblet squats} untimed

Saturday was “Operation Get Some”, an event that Wladi and Carson planned. They did a fantastic job and everyone had a lot of fun. Mostly. I wrote a separate posting about that, as I have… well, let’s just say “issues that I should probably see someone for”.

After OGS, we got home and ate lunch. As we were settling in to relax for a bit, I got a call from my Grandmother that she was headed to the ER as she had been throwing up all night and was starting to get chest pains.

V and I met her there at the ER and she was very quickly admitted. The doctors did some tests and quickly determined that she had atrial fibrillation. She had never had this before.

Anyway, they gave her a few different drugs to get her heart rate under control as it was in the 170s and 180s, peaking even near 200 at times. That’s very scary and very dangerous. They also did a few other tests like blood work, cat scan (to check for clots), cardiograms, etc and all looked good.

Once her heart rate was under control and she was feeling better they decided to admit her overnight to the ICU. The drug that they put her on has to be monitored closely as it can lead to low blood pressure and low heart rate. They were very clear about why they were putting her in the ICU; not because she was unstable, but because people need close monitoring on that drug.

The long and short of it is that she ended up being able to go home yesterday (Sunday) after just 1 night’s stay. The cardiologist believes that the stress and nutrient depletion of throwing up for 12 hours straight led to her heart entering into this abnormal beat pattern. Once they slowed her heart rate, her heart went back to a normal pattern by itself pretty quickly.

She’s got a few follow ups to make but she will be fine.

The question now is, what the hell did she do to make herself throw up for 12 hours?! That sounds like a stomach virus to me and from what I hear, her neighbor’s kids have both had that sort of thing on and off. Whether or not it came from them, who knows. I am not trying to place blame. It very well could have also been from something that she ate. Whatever it was, I hope it doesn’t happen to her again.

Sunday was mostly a wash. We stayed in bed late, then got up and ate breakfast. We had a house painter come over to give a quote which we happily accepted. After that, we went over to Costco and Whole Foods for groceries, then I headed to the hospital for a visit and ended up bringing her home. By the time I got home, there wasn’t much left in me for a lot. I made dinner and got a lot of stuff prepped for our Valentine’s dinner today. Speaking of which, here’s what’s on the menu:


  1. Red and Gold beet salad with arugula, goat cheese, and balsamic honey reduction.
  2. Parmesan crisps.


Chicken breast stuffed with spinach, mushrooms, garlic, parmesan cheese & covered with tomato cream sauce. Side of roasted asparagus.


Chocolate covered strawberries (choice of dark or milk chocolate).

I am very much looking forward to sharing a romantic dinner with V. Life has been very busy lately (I know, I know, just wait) and we haven’t really spent lots of quality time together.


It has been a stressful year.

This morning, on the really short drive to the office here in Nashville, I started pondering the various events that happened over the last year.

Last night, before I fell asleep, I was reading Robb Wolf’s “The Paleo Solution”. Specifically, the chapter about sleep and stress where he talks about how too little sleep and too much chronic stress can really affect you in a negative way. Turns out our ancestors only had to deal with *acute* stress i.e. every once in a while, something would try to eat them or fight with them or something. Today, we deal with chronic, constant, and unyielding amounts of stress that literally eats away at our souls and turns us into broken, pathetic individuals. How long this stress takes to break a person down will be different for everyone based on their constitution.

If you recall my post about going to the doctor (all 2 of you that read this), you will remember that she said that I had gained 11 pounds since my visit last year. Sure, I have been hitting WODs hard and eating lots of protein. I am sure that some of that is added muscle. I am also sure that some of that is added fat.

See I have had a really stressful year, but I hadn’t really thought about it until now.

Let’s review, shall we? This past year has had some amazing life events, but all came along with very high levels of stress:

  1. I got married. Awesome! It’s great to be married and I’m sure that my wife will agree with me when I say that I am happy that the wedding/reception(s) are all over. The events themselves were happy & fun days for the most part, but the sustained stress over a long period of time to get them planned was really something I NEVER want to have to do again.
  2. My job has become exponentially more involved. Over the course of a year, work has gotten WAY busier in that there is more to do in less time and this occurs on a sustained basis. From a financial we-aren’t-gonna-go-broke perspective, this is great. I don’t really stress day-to-day about whether or not I will make my bills and I am thankful for this, but the associated workload as proved to be a constant source of stress, aggravation, and worry.
  3. I’ve tried to start my own business and failed. V and I tried to get a paleo foods company going, but well, it never really worked out. I won’t go into the reasons why on a public forum, but the stress of trying to make it work at times, was pretty high. While I have a bit of a sense of relief that we have decided to abandon the idea, part of me is really disappointed that we can’t really pursue this right now. It is what it is.
  4. My wife is pregnant. Yay! We are having a baby! I can’t begin to express how happy I am for this. There are so many positive feelings that come out of this like knowing that we are both good and healthy, knowing that I won’t be 80 when my kids are in school, etc. As I am sure most fathers or even most prospective fathers will attest is EXTREMELY stressful. People will always say that men will never know what the woman is going through during pregnancy, and I wholeheartedly agree. I will never truly understand how my wife feels at this time given what’s going on inside of her body. However, from the other perspective, I am not sure that any woman can really truly understand how much work goes into taking care of you and making sure that you have everything provided for you. This is not a complaint, mind you, just an observation about what this particular life experience entails. This has been a source of a considerable amount of stress over the past few months.
  5. Day to day things that just pop up. We all have these little issues/problems/situations that pop up out of nowhere and derail our otherwise ride to happyville. A problem with a bill, something wrong with medical coverage, family problems, relationship issues, financial worries about the future… they all feed into a constant stream of never-ending stress if not placed into perspective and dealt with accordingly. I have been letting these things really get to me at times.

I have to say that after listing all of this out and seeing it in front of me, I am honestly surprised that I don’t weight 300# and suffer from high blood pressure at this point in time.

Interestingly enough, though, a few weeks ago, something in me changed. I hesitate to use the word “snapped” because I didn’t go on a murderous rampage. Believe me, sometimes, I wish I could with no consequences.

I digress.

I made the decision, conscious or not, I can’t really remember, to just not let this kind of stuff affect me at the level that it is/was anymore. It was like the “care” switch just turned off.

What to I mean by this? Here’s an example.

Usually at work, I get calls from my boss where he talks about all of the work and projects that are in the pipeline. I have known my boss for over 15 years. He’s a good friend and I am one of the first 4 people in the company, so we talk about this stuff often. As an employee, this used to really get me SO stressed out. For a while, I was the only one, really that would be doing the work. So, as he would be telling me about everything coming down and when it needed to start, my blood pressure would be slowly rising as I started to think about things like “how in the hell am I going to deliver all of this/manage this/juggle this”… “it’s too much”… “I can’t handle it”. Then I would fret about it for hours after and it would ruin my mood for the rest of the day/evening.

Now, these conversations go something like this:

Him: We have this that, that, that, and that, all coming and they all need to start then.

Me: Ok, whatever… we will figure it out. No big deal.

This attitude has started to bleed into my personal life as well. I won’t go into too much detail there as I am sure you get the picture. Financial worries, problems with family, relationship problems… whatever.

They will all get worked out eventually. I can’t let all of this stress kill me slowly. I have a kid on the way and don’t want to die early because I couldn’t manage what everyone and the world demands of me. So, take a number. I’ll get to you at some point.

Now, I don’t want you to misinterpret this “whatever” attitude as “wow, he doesn’t care about anything”. That isn’t true. There’s lots that I care about, get worked up about, and really put a lot of energy into. At this point though, I’m really only sweating the stuff that warrants sweating.

  • Problems with money? Whatever.
  • Medical insurance changes and triple in price? Whatever.
  • Dishwasher broken? Whatever.
  • Need a bigger house, but house is currently upside down? Whatever.
  • Need to outfit baby room with furniture? Whatever.
  • Need to travel every other week for the next 12 weeks? Whatever.
  • Cars need maintenance but no time to do it? Whatever.
  • Food bills cost 1/4 of your monthly income? Whatever.

I will no longer drive myself crazy with trying to keep the wheels on the wagon. Even if they come off, they can be put back on. Everything will get dealt with eventually and the things that have a higher priority get the most attention. Right now, those things are making sure that my wife is healthy and OK, and making sure that I do well at my job so that I can continue having a job.

But wait, aren’t you (Bryan) a priority? Well, I guess, sorta. I eat well and workout. I try to go to sleep at a reasonable hour and now, with this attitude shift I have been making, I feel a lot less stress overall.

The only problem that I am starting to see with this is that it’s really easy overdo it which leads to this feeling of being a mindless automaton where you just say “uh-hu
h, whatever” to anything that is asked of you. When I do this at work, I am well aware that saying “uh-huh, sure, whatever” to everything will make the work pile on endlessly. To avoid this, I make sure to protest things when I have to, but still don’t really get all that worked up about it like I used to.

Life, these days…

Life has been really busy lately. It seems that I am starting to take on more responsibility in this little company of ours, which is fine by me. I have never really been a project manager or even any management type, for that matter, but I am learning. As our company grows, my role, I feel will be shifting towards this as well as a lead or high level technical person. I think.

Aside from that, we are still getting things ready for our wedding. The biggest area of focus right now is the invitations. We are very ambitious in what we have planned and we need to get it done… like 3 weeks ago. If our wedding planning were a restaurant, we’d be “in the weeds”.

On top of that, we are in the preliminary stages of getting “Perfectly Paleo” set up so that we can actually start selling items legitimately while protecting ourselves from civil liability. Fun. Who knew I would one day be starting a business. Not me. It’s pretty damn exciting, but a lot of research and work. There are so many unknowns and so many questions. Hopefully once we are passed this initial period, we will be able to start working on actually growing the thing to replace Victoria’s current job. I don’t see that happening for a while, though.

What else…

As much as I try to not allow it to, money has been somewhat stressing me out. I am, thankfully, in a really good financial situation at the moment, but when large expenses start rolling in, I get stressed out. Currently, we are looking at a few things like replacing the roof, an unexpected medical bill, and obviously, our wedding. We are also looking at some start up costs or the aforementioned business.

Tonight, we are going for our second visit to Maximized Living in Cedar Park. This office is a special branch of chiropractic care that looks for something called “subluxation” in your spine. That means that it looks for stuff that’s out of whack in your spine that might be compressing or hindering the communication of your nervous system. Although it might not hurt, you still might see adverse affects from something being slightly blocked or compressed. Last time, they just took x-rays. Tonight, we are going to sit with Dr. Meers and actually look at the x-rays to see what they have found. I am really fascinated by this.

Tonight is also the primaries here in TX. There are lots of people running for lots of offices, so I am trying to figure out who best to vote for.




Shoulder Burner

I wasn’t planning on working out last night, but given how the rest of the week is shaping up, it became apparent that I needed to go. I guess it was a good thing as the soreness of Tuesday’s workout hasn’t yet set in.

I don’t normally put the warm up in here, but hell, since it took so much out of me, I will. It was:


  • 10 Jumping jacks
  • 10 Squats
  • 10 Push ups
  • 10 Sit ups


2000m row. (!!!)

I have never had to row that much. I can’t really say that I pushed myself as much as I would have if the clock was running. I paced myself and came in just under 10 minutes (for just the row) at around 9:39. Not too bad.

Last night’s fun time workout consisted of:

15 – 30 – 45 {

  • Squat
  • Push up
  • Push press (Rx 65lb)


My time was 11:58.

This one was pretty damn hard. The first sets aren’t bad at all. The “suck” factor comes in the last set when you have to do 45 of everything. I think I had to do my push ups (after about 10) in sets of 2 and 3. I was able to get 8-10 per set on the push presses. When I started the last set, the clock read close to 8 minutes. I was really shooting for a sub 10 minute time last night, but it just wasn’t in the cards.

In other news, my parents are here visiting! It’s so nice to have them here. Although the visits are always too short, I am trying to make the most of it amidst all of the other things that have to get done like house cleaning, house decorating, Christmas shopping, cooking, etc. Oh, and work… did I mention work? Thank goodness there are just two days left until vacation. Maybe then I will have some time to do the things I need to do to get ready for Christmas.