{"id":259,"date":"2005-02-27T14:40:00","date_gmt":"2005-02-27T19:40:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=259"},"modified":"2005-02-27T14:40:00","modified_gmt":"2005-02-27T19:40:00","slug":"feeling-better","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=259","title":{"rendered":"Feeling Better…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have been feeling better lately. I’m not like bubbly or anything, but I am feeling a little bit better about myself. I guess enough to not think that I am a total loser that no one will ever like ever. I was driving around today and I was listening to my mp3 player and this song “Safe Place” came on from Staind. I hadn’t heard it in a while, but, after listening to it, I could identify with it… well except for the being “on the road” part. Anyway… here…<\/span><\/p>\n

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Another day Inside my world<\/span>
I’m married to you and this road.<\/span>
A road that never lets me sleep .<\/span>
So theres no way to escape the demons I am forced to keep.<\/span><\/p>\n

And then I find you here<\/span>
Through your eyes<\/span>
Everything’s clear<\/span>
And I’m home<\/span>
Inside your arms,<\/span>
But I’m alone for now.<\/span><\/p>\n

I mean the best with what I say.<\/span>
It doesn’t always sound that way.<\/span>
I never learned to work things out cause<\/span>
In my family all we ever seem to do is shout.<\/span><\/p>\n

But then I find you here<\/span>
Through your eyes, everythings clear<\/span>
And I’m home inside your arms, but I’m alone for now.<\/span><\/p>\n

And when I try to sleep-<\/span>
the drugs I take<\/span>
are killing me – I think of you<\/span>
to ease my pain –<\/span>
but you’re so far-<\/span>
Now it’s time to say goodbye.<\/span>
I love you baby<\/span>
please don’t cry –<\/span>
’cause then I’ll find you here –<\/span>
Through your eyes everythings clear –<\/span>
and I’m home inside your arms – but I’m alone for now.<\/span><\/p>\n

But then I find you here<\/span>
Through your eyes,<\/span>
everythings clear<\/span>
And I’m home<\/span>
inside your arms,<\/span>
but I’m alone for now.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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I do feel like I am alone. I mean physically, I am. And somehow that creeps its way into my head and manifests itself as mental lonliness even though the people that I love are really just a phone call away. A hug though, would be nice, but maybe for now, I am asking too much.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I have been feeling better lately. I’m not like bubbly or anything, but I am feeling a little bit better about myself. I guess enough to not think that I am a total loser that no one will ever like ever. I was driving around today and I was listening to my mp3 player and […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-259","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/259","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=259"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/259\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=259"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=259"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=259"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}