{"id":234,"date":"2005-07-14T21:46:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-15T02:46:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=234"},"modified":"2005-07-14T21:46:00","modified_gmt":"2005-07-15T02:46:00","slug":"its-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=234","title":{"rendered":"It&#039;s back&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size:85%;\"><span style=\"font-family: arial;\">There you are again&#8230; you have been away for a few weeks. Thrilled that you&#8217;re back&#8230; <br \/> <\/span><br \/> <span style=\"font-family: arial;\">The lonliness is back this week&#8230; just peeking its head to make sure that I know it&#8217;s still there. I was invited to go out tonight with a group of people, but I made up excuses so that I wouldn&#8217;t have to go&#8230; I have a doc&#8217;s appt tomorrow&#8230; I&#8217;m really tired&#8230; well&#8230; I actually am really tired, but I not tired enough to not be able to go out&#8230; <\/span><\/p>\n<p> <span style=\"font-family: arial;\">The point is that I made up shit so that I wouldn&#8217;t have to be in the position to be out around people that I don&#8217;t know. It has been scaring me more and more lately to think about being around people that I don&#8217;t know. Thing is, when I know that I am making up these excuses to not go out, I sit home and feel sorry for myself. I think that if I would have gone, I would just be standing around feeling sorry for myself anyway b\/c no one would talk to me&#8230; so why not do it in the comfort of my apartment? I can be there alone too&#8230; <\/span><\/p>\n<p> <span style=\"font-family: arial;\">Maybe I&#8217;ll sleep through the night tonight and feel like I actually slept. Maybe I will wake up tomorrow and actually feel like I am a person&#8230; maybe&#8230; I&#8217;m not gettin my hopes up&#8230; <\/span><br \/> <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There you are again&#8230; you have been away for a few weeks. Thrilled that you&#8217;re back&#8230; The lonliness is back this week&#8230; just peeking its head to make sure that I know it&#8217;s still there. I was invited to go out tonight with a group of people, but I made up excuses so that I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-234","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/234","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=234"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/234\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=234"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=234"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=234"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}