{"id":210,"date":"2005-09-20T09:55:00","date_gmt":"2005-09-20T14:55:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=210"},"modified":"2005-09-20T09:55:00","modified_gmt":"2005-09-20T14:55:00","slug":"silly-boy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=210","title":{"rendered":"Silly boy…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Oh Bryan… you are a fool. What are you doing? Why did you let yourself get even a little attached? Jackass… <\/span><\/p>\n

Remember… feelings, emotions are temporary. A conjur of the mind which distracts from true nature. Don’t be fooled be feelings or emotions. <\/span><\/p>\n

Duh… <\/span><\/p>\n

So we were laying there last night talking and I was pretty content. <\/span><\/p>\n

Then her phone rang. <\/span><\/p>\n

As soon as it did, I blew out the candle and laughed because I knew what was about to happen. She was going to get off the phone and tell me that she was leaving.<\/span><\/p>\n

She came back into the room and told me she was leaving. Big suprise. Was I mad? No. This however, is a perfect case in point, in clear example of how attachment, want, and desire can trigger events in the body to make an person feel sadness. <\/span><\/p>\n

After she got her stuff together, she asked me if I was mad a few times (to which I replied “No”, because I was not). Then she was gone. <\/span><\/p>\n

I went back in my room, relit my candle and sat Zazen for about 10 minutes trying to release the feelings that were coming up. I felt a little anger, not much, some sadness, but overall… just plain silly. I reminded myself of a few things. One of the most important of those things being that these feelings and emotions only affect Bryan, the person, the human, the bag of flesh… not me. I am just playing Bryan for a little while. We are all just playing parts for a while until we return to what we all really are. <\/span><\/p>\n

In the end I laughed about it because after, nothing really matters. The tinge of pain that I felt, my lonliess, my sadness, my feelings of worthlessness… they don’t matter. They are all fleeting as well as artificial. They are only real because I make a concious decision to make them real. <\/span><\/p>\n

My feelings and emotions are just creations of my mind. They are temporary, they go away. So now, it becomes a question of learning to let go of them or letting them sit and cause unecessary stress. I have accetped the fact that I have no control what happens for this particular situation.<\/span>
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Oh Bryan… you are a fool. What are you doing? Why did you let yourself get even a little attached? Jackass… Remember… feelings, emotions are temporary. A conjur of the mind which distracts from true nature. Don’t be fooled be feelings or emotions. Duh… So we were laying there last night talking and I was […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-210","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/210","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=210"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/210\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=210"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=210"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=210"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}