{"id":193,"date":"2006-03-13T01:12:00","date_gmt":"2006-03-13T06:12:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=193"},"modified":"2006-03-13T01:12:00","modified_gmt":"2006-03-13T06:12:00","slug":"i-got-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/?p=193","title":{"rendered":"I got it…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I think I got it. I think I finally got it…<\/p>\n

First off, let me start by saying that I am too happy to sleep. Now, a little background. I have been taking T’ai Chi classes for almost a year now, I would say. I have been learning moves up until this point, but tonight… tonight… something different happened.<\/p>\n

As I was practicing, this overwhelming feeling of happiness just came over me. I realized a lot of things tonight, but I’ll get to that in a minute. To sum it up, there is a baby screaming its head off outside, and I am not bothered in the least by it. I’m not in my own little world… I am not high… I just am….<\/p>\n

Anyway… back to this feeling. As I am doing my forms, I am focusing on now. Here and now. I wasn’t thinking about things from the past or what I am going to eat tomorrow for breakfast, or about how tomorrow is going to suck b\/c it’s Monday… I wasn’t thinking about any of that. I was experiencing the moment for what it was… the air between my fingers, that carpet under my feet, the blood in my hands… I could feel it all and this was what happiness was tonight. My mind was free. Free from itself…<\/p>\n

After this, I laid in bed and thought about my life and where it is right now. When I started working for… well… you know who I work for… one of my goals was to be making 100k by the time I am 30. To be honest, that doesn’t seem all that important anymore. I have a job that enables me to do the things that I want to do, be flexible and have a life outside of work. For once in my recent life, I can finally say that I am happy where I am. Content. Not complacent. Happy. The only aspect that is missing is having my family here. I miss them terribly.<\/p>\n

I compare the above to how I was feeling a year ago at this time and it is like night and day. I feel that I have come a long way and am proud of myself for doing so. I want to make every effort to have this feeling and attitude at all times in my life no matter what.<\/p>\n

Even though I am still too wired to sleep… my girlfriend is in the bed all alone… she’s sleeping… but still… she’s all alone. I’m gonna go keep her company…<\/p>\n

Good night… <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I think I got it. I think I finally got it… First off, let me start by saying that I am too happy to sleep. Now, a little background. I have been taking T’ai Chi classes for almost a year now, I would say. I have been learning moves up until this point, but tonight… […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-193","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/193","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=193"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/193\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=193"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=193"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.familyofgoldsteins.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=193"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}